I had more nightmares last night.  Hysterically enough, one was about missing my math exam.  Another was my mum letting me know she knew about my cutting…Then I had another that I cannot recall.

Today I went into town with my brother.  I did speak with Romeo, but he is just so confusing.  He calls/texts me, but then retracts it because he does not want to need me since he is “no longer my responsibility.”  Yeah, okay.  It really feels like that.

He is still suffering from short term memory loss on some things.   It may be like that for a while.  I am still not concerned nor worried.  Does that make me a bad person?  Probably.

Despite major procrastinating, I did complete all of my homework and math exam before the deadline—and with plenty of time to spare!

Everyone is sleeping now.  Go figure.  It is nice to have some peace and quiet.  After this post I will probably go upstairs, vape for a few minutes, then watch a show before going to sleep.  I have two appointments tomorrow then I have to do laundry and pack to leave early in the morning on the 3rd.  Back to nothing.

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I hate how fat I have gotten.  When I get back to campus I am restricting calories by a lot along with working out every night on the track.  I am also considering the soccer club/team so I figured I can practice on the field as well.  This will give me something to do at night besides just walking aimlessly around town.  I cannot die fat.  If I do decide that is what I want to do, I have to be at least 20lbs lighter.  Otherwise I will just be an embarrassment.  Who knows, maybe my heart will give out and I will not have to do a thing!

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I got my car inspected and had the A/C fixed while it was in there.  I have never been so thankful for A/C before in my entire life!  And with the money I made a couple weeks ago on my trip, I will be able to afford gas!  I am trying to save some of it though so I can dye my hair platinum blonde…I think it would be cool.

I have not spoken to my roomie in quite a few weeks.  I do wish I could have someone to share this stuff with.  OaOa is just too far away.  And she thinks just like me so often is unable to think of advice to give.  Or maybe my advisor!  I do miss The Bat so.  Hopefully I can run into him sometime next week maybe?

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Anyway, I will hop off so I can attempt to sleep.