Today I had my doctor’s appointment in the morning and it went fairly well, I suppose.  I just had to get her to put in more referrals for my specialists.  While I was there I had my blood drawn and tested to see if I am still anemic.  After that appointment my mum and I had hair appointments to go to.  It has been forever since I have had my hair cut and it feels/looks awesome right now.  We went out to lunch then hung out at the house until later that evening when we went to the movies.  Mum got pissed at my driving, of course, which nearly sent me over the edge.  I wish she could just be fine with me.

The movie was cute and things were better afterwards.  Now I have to motivate myself to pack for the trip.

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I feel like I am asleep.  Is that weird?  Like I am asleep and need someone to wake me up.  I have no motivation, no feelings towards much of anything.  I want this to end.  I wish I knew how.

I feel like Avicii’s song “Wake Me Up.”

“…I tried carrying the weight of the world
But I only have two hands…
I wish that I could stay forever this young
Not afraid to close my eyes
Life’s a game made for everyone
And love is a prize

So wake me up when it’s all over
When I’m wiser and I’m older
All this time I was finding myself
And I didn’t know I was lost…“

Just wake me up when it is all over.  When all of this is done and things are okay.  I wish I could continue sleeping….forever.