I suppose things could have gone worse. One family did not show up so we were short three people, but there was still a lot. It was just weird. I definitely would have preferred to be anywhere else. I just wanted some alone time.

I skated by with little food and practically no small talk at all. Apparently we are going horseback riding and ziplining tomorrow. That should be relatively fun. I think I am just going to stay up all night instead of going to sleep. I would really like to avoid sleeping as much as possible. Maybe work on the blog for a while and catch up on posts.

We shall see what tomorrow brings.

I legit hate people. Like legit legit. People make me so angry. I am not sure if it is the lack of intelligence or just shear ignorance, but I just cannot stand them.

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I had to take my girl to the vet to get some antibiotics, but other than that have not done much today. I did, however, find out that there will be 19—I repeat 19 (nineteen)—people coming over tonight.

Kill me now.

I am sitting right now as my father and brother unpack their car, waiting for our beloved family members [read: much despised at the moment] to arrive. I am hiding away to maintain what little tolerance and filter I have left. God forbid I say something truthful, I might just hurt someone’s feelings. Aside from that and arguing with my mum, things have been fairly quiet. For now.

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OaOa texted me back this morning after the text I sent her last night. She told me I was wrong and deserved better, but that is totally not true. All of it was my fault and I have just been wasting time trying to blame him. He was right: I will never find someone else who will love me. He was it. But what does that matter now? Nothing. Absolutely nothing.

I am alone. Unless he takes me back, I am alone.